Interests:Anime: ranging from all kinds as long as it's nice; Equestrian Sports: dressage and show jumping rox; Music: definately J-pop; Art: colour pencils are cool; Torturing my only brother. Expertise:Hm...playing the piano(not as good as Nodame). Giving advice. Horse riding. Able to play mahjong and sadly...getting addicted to it. Have a great Anime collection(not as great as lemon). Can tell you many things about horses non stop. lol Have better memory than Mel. Being a fun Gamemaster and MC. Occupation:Student, Otaku, Slave driver Industry:hm...life
Things happen for a reason; that is my view of life. No matter how minute or major a particular event is, common or not, I take it as a form of understanding in the need to improve myself. I remembered when I was introduced to this question of “What is my purpose in life?” in middle school. I couldn’t answer it. The question was short and direct, but I couldn’t. Back then, I admit I was a carefree child. Little did I know that that one question would bear such depth impact and hold such importance in my life. Its significance made me think of the reason for me being here and now, I think I could roughly sketch it out and one of it is to be a responsible child for my parents who unconditionally love me.
As time prolongs, I found myself constantly surrounded with a variety of people and challenges.Experiences taught me many useful things and it changed my character forever. While I used to be quiet, I became sociable and learnt leadership in the clubs I joined. I made a new group of supportive friends who couldn’t be bothered of my flaws and were more interested in the fact that I am always cracking up jokes or try arguing issues with them.
I have hardly ever hold grudges against people. I have often had this thought of not torturing oneself for the sake of others; it isn’t worth the energy and effort. It would be different however; if they are people that I really care about. This is because I really love my family and friends. So much so that occasionally writing about them would make me cry, especially when I am so far away from home being here in the United States. They are the reason for me being here and having them around me at all times made me strong in times of despair. The support and live I got is always the driving force I need to keep me going. Therefore, I would go tremendous length for them. With the new found friends here, they will in turn be my pillar of support that I will treasure each and every one of them wholeheartedly.
My religious and spiritual beliefs have been important. It is a guide to assist me in making the right decisions. Moreover, I know that God is always there to protect me and this divine strength is my will to live a meaningful life. Every day, I am very thankful for being alive and I am grateful for all the joy, love, and basic necessities that I have. Indeed, God is great. (Me ish free thinker who believes in all Gods.)
Yo! It's been a while since I last touched my blog. These two weeks have been one adventure ride. Now, as I relaxing and savoring the sweet gummy bears, I felt the need to update this baby before the dust starts piling up again. I promised anime reviews and with all the time I'll have here at Kzoo, you can bet one is definitely coming up this month.
Yea! That's the way to do it. Horses rox too!
Well, I am now in the United States. There are many things to see, learn, and to understand. It can get pretty confusing for an international student such as myself. I'll manage somehow. My apartment is awesome; it's cozy and it feels just right for two girls living together. Sheta has her group of friends and mine my own, but it gets really fun when we all sit together for a meal. It feels like a mini Malaysian community. Something to feel closer to home with. I'm not gonna go all lengthy and detail on everything that we have here. It's pretty too much info overload. I will try inputting a lil at a time.
Something Random: On my way to Kzoo, I transitted at Changi, Singapore. You won't believe what I've been doing my entire 5 hours there. T-T Was chatting using ebuddy with Ian and Argenis. Until say 4am? That's pretty bad for my liver. *stares at Starbucks* The waiter is really cute and sweet to make me an extra cup free.
Oya, I am planning to form another group of horse plushies collection here. There are so many and I can't wait to start buying them. Fyi, only Ngao Che followed me to the US. The rest will be occupying my room while I'm gone. Haha^^
A day after arriving US, I'm pretty sure the most of you received my very lengthy email, so I'm not going to write those stuffs here no more. Gonna just head on to more interesting stuffs.
To all those who gave me plenty of wishes and gifts, my words to you can be summed in this one song- My Wish by my favorite band, Rascal Flatts.
I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow, and each road leads you where you want to go, and if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose, I hope you choose the one that means the most to you. and if one door opens to another door closed, I hope you keep on walkin' 'til you find the window, if it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile, but more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back, but ya never forget, all the ones who love you, in the place you left, I hope you always forgive, and you never regret, and you help somebody every chance you get, Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake, and always give more then you take.
But more than anything, Yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish.
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to, your dreams stay big, your worries stay small, You never need to carry more than you can hold, and while you're out there getting where you're getting to, I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too, Yeah, this, is my wish. this is my wish i hope you know somebody loves you may all your dreams stay big
Note: Many thanks to pika for the super emo video of her singing Here Comes Goodbye by Rascal Flatts also. The thing is...she don't sing. So, I'm really touched she did that for me.
Our most basic instinct is not for survival but for family. Most of us would give our own life for the survival of a family member, yet we lead our daily life too often as if we take our family for granted. ~Paul Pearshall
Unlike friends, you cannot be selective about them. I will miss them the most when I go to the US-my family. They are the most imperfect thing one can ever have, but yet to me, they are perfect beyond compare. It is very much a cliche to be talking about how much I love them and stuff, yes, so I'm going to talk about the things I will miss most about them.
Every day I will miss the debate with Dad over current issues I feel strongly about. The particular whistle that signals his return from work. The humdrum of his Toyota into the porch. I will miss the play talk with him about my horsies. The look of dismay when I did something wrong. The father-daughter talk about everything else under the sun.
Every day I will miss the food my Mom cooks in which all are my favorites. The nagging and scolding that could last forever. Massaging her back every night to stop her back from aching. The chauffeuring around that allows me to take the back sit of the car. Her nicknaming everyone. The mother-daughter moments when we cry over a particular scene when we watch movies together.
Every day I will miss the random uninvited bang into my room, my Brother will make. The cuddling and hugs we shared every now and then. The pillow talks at night. The stupid arguments over the littlest things. His constant morning sinus that is ridiculously routine and the occasional sleep talking that would scare the living nightmare off people.
The happiest moments of my life have been the few which I have passed at home in the bosom of my family. ~Thomas Jefferson
This much I know it's true, that I love them from the very bottom of my heart.
The first of every tear I'm going to cry, ywsmokona
Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive. ~Anäis Nin
Where would I be without them? They are the mirrors to which I reflect myself, the crutches that hold me steady, the vain characters that are my entertainment, and the companies when the lights go out. They are the people that I cherish all my life, be it to an extent, small or big roles, they are one part of me in the many moving vessels in this world. They are each priceless and all of which gave me the bitter-sweet memories that I gain my experiences from.
Friends that last a lifetime. Boy...they are hard to find. One minute when you think you had it, somehow or rather, the bird thinks it had enough of sunflower seeds and decide to take flight to elsewhere. In my primary school days, I found a group of soul mates. It was a gift of wonders. The Maturest group of people I came to know until this very day. It was say...interestingly small; we hunt in a pack and kill in five. This came a habituation that I would unnervingly do things for them without much reluctance.
I stood patiently for two hours before pika's doorsteps. She just broke off with her boyfriend, Jared and was against seeing anyone (hid in her room), including her parents. She yelled at me for being there. I was tad crazy. But the doors opened and she hugged me, in the rain. [The rest paiseh, and made me promised not to mention about them too much. lolx]
The grass kept growing greener when in my secondary school days, I met the Craziest group of people - the PPS-es (librarians) plus a Prefect and an ordinary Student. School life has never been more colorful without them around. We were always competing in everything. Food, exams, co-curricular activities... It is the best time of my life, having them around. There is always a place to fall back to when life gets harsh.
I remember not liking Tsing when we first met. She was stubborn and brash and stingy, say...not even willing to part away that RM 1 for the class fund? A lot of life changing experience took place and I left an influencial group to hang with her. Chewa~ Ever since then, we became practically inseparable like Ng (T)Sing Y(i)e(e) Wen. Melc and I went thru a lot too. We've known one another since primary school. She was timid and blur at most times, and I really felt that life was being unfair when all the bad things stuck her one by one. But, now I can honestly say, thank God for making things smooth for her now in America and I do hope she lets go of the past.
Warmth is Lai Mun and her expertise is Vanity. Miss Universe is the loveliest person around. I fell in love with her and her family. Truth to behold, I am yet to find a family that can match hers in terms of cuddles and humility. Also, another kaki from primary school. The irony when we both ended up being the best of friends when we were in secondary school. Wished I've known her sooner. PL came in with Steph and it was yet another gift from above. Steph with her smart choice of words, is ultimately game for any court battles. PL is beyond sweet and loyal, it is hard to not love her for being so thoughtful all the time. You can count the number of horse books and plushies she got for me over the years we came to know one another. Recently, she became an expert in sarcasm. Not that it's a good thing. lolx Well at least she is the smartest amongst us. T-T And then there's Apo. Full stop.
College life is probably by far the most complex and short spent, but we stood attest time. I started out with a close group of ADTP five (thank you Jan, Charlene, Meeting, and Paul) which grew even bigger after the four left to US. The circle was shifted to Ausmat-ADTP combi (thank you Apple, Cheng Cheng, Onion, Jit Ye, Sheta and chinese chinese co.) and later on, to the Loudest and Largest family of people I will ever meet in a lifetime, the SUAC Gaki's. The reason I call them gaki's (brats) is that they are no doubt, the most inexperienced and perhaps spoilt bunch of kids I've ever entertained and it kept shooting up the roof everytime something bad happens (very often so).
Being a very lazy person, I don't like yelling or losing my heads on people much. But, it was different when it came to the Gaki's, it was DD. Again, it was ultimately due to AniManGaki 09 that taught me some serious lessons in life that I always never want to take. Dealing with massive problems in one go in a determination-tested arena. I honestly thought I wouldn't make it since I threw huge tantrums (yes, a breakdown moment and MANY scream therapy) at pika all the time when it came to mentioning about AniManGaki and the Gaki's.
However, God is Great, like what the late Yasmin Ahmad always pointed out on.
Lo and behold, the Gaki's were forced to mature fast and we managed to pull thru for AniManGaki 09 together. It was probably that very fabric that made us all extremely closely-knitted. I remember having to entice members to make them attend the meeting, now we don't even have to. They gladly participate without fail. SUAC is still something I am very proud of being its founder. The whole lot of whipping and encouragement altered many of SUAC's members. They grow to be better and words cannot define how strongly happy I felt for these young'ins altho we've only known each another mostly for a year. Felt so mama-ish. Nicole and Jason, where art thou's?
Changing people's lives and creating an impact in this world are the goals of my life. I guess that's pretty much one down and the other to go. May my storybook goes to chapter 1000!! (ADTP 5 will know what's this.)
I dedicate this to the people that I acknowledge and to them that I owe my plenty admiration for. To those unmentioned many, I apologize I can't write much. But rest assured, you will be remembered as well. After all who is Yvonne Sing without you?
A single rose can be my garden... a single friend, my world. ~Leo Buscaglia
Thank you all for being my friends. Again...not being desperate.
